ennui

it means boredom in french
what if i could be this girl,
bed head, a silk robe,
smoking on a balcony, with a glass of wine
soaking in the sun,
written by a man

nothing french about frostbites
no vitamin d in lunch break sunsets

it’s winter, not l’hiver
it’s not ennui, it’s roaches in my head
maybe i should start drinking
or playing video games

i’d give all my money
to someone who could keep me engaged
no amount of french words does it
neither will you

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the nuclear winter

last month before the solstice
the hardest time of all
and every year i learn:
the snow will turn to rivers,
it will be warm again

when i was left on read,
i did the same gymnastics
you’re busy,
you’re just thinking of an answer,
you’re just depressed,
you will come back

the winter we were living through
was nuclear

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Daria P. is a music journalist, a singer-songwriter without a band, and an aspiring poet who was born and is currently residing in a small town in Siberia. They’re currently working as a copywriter and blog contributor at Selzy and, along with several other journalists, run a podcast with music reviews in Russian.